The best part about today was going to a wedding reception of people I didn't really know and being the first out on the dance floor after all the formal dances.  It was the best part about today, because we were the only ones dancing for a while (aside from the bride and groom) which made Meg wonder if I had really heard the DJ correctly that the floor was open and that we weren't ruining a bride groom only dance.

Hey people, pray for me, I need it.

I have a sin issue.

I bring Meg and Myself into sexual sin.

To what degree I won't specify, but I will say it has been relatively infrequent and we have not had intercourse.

My heart doesn't want this, but boy.. everything else in me does (that girl is friggen hot..)

I'm sorry, I've let people down, please take my apology and know that I am trying. 

I'm trying very hard.

I'm setting up very strict boundaries that are going to be monitored by good people.

Little side commentary... I needed to tell you this....

Sexual sin is wrong like any other sin.. yet I know people have a stronger emotional response to it and that's why I think many Christians don't like talking about it.... which makes it really easy to hide in... part of me was terrified to tell all of you this... yet I see people blog about there own personal issues each month.

I don't wanna be a boy, I wanna be a Man... and I know (that only through Gods grace) I am in certain ways.. and I don't mind boasting on Gods handy work with me.  In this area, I'm a selfish little boy that needs help.. and telling you all this is hopefully one more step to Masculine Christian Perfection that I desire.

I love Meg.. but I need to get a lot better at it. 

Thanks, bye
          -Micah